i had an experience of being like “well i’m so ugly, i’m not allowed to like cute things esp bc of the way i’ve been defeminized, i bet ppl would find it gross/weird etc” but honestly… at some point i stopped caring LOL. i feel like life is hard enough as an ugly woman as it is without feeling like i Have to appease the expectations of the people who make my life miserable. it doesn’t suit me? whatever. nothing suits me anyway. it’s kind of liberating in a way. i just hate the thought of seeing the ugly world and being treated like shit and then coming home and continuing to feel like it’s still there. i come back to my room and i see plushies and cute things that make me happy and i get a respite from all that. i think everyone deserves that, so why not me? for that matter, i think you deserve that too, so why not you?

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