daiba datta

"in the end i have never enjoyed myself this much in years or more aptly, in my whole life"

My soul will expand into nothingness; all in Your shape, all for Your sake.

Oh, my whole life is staked on that one momentary smile.

leaving behind, nothing to see left, lingering headaches, nothing to cling to, too many people.

i'll still love you without the interference of flesh, is what i thought. but the time has passed since then, how did i materialize a touch that could never exist? but then it was just another touch with you. is this the smile i stake my life on? why did my heart forget its softness?

the beauty in slow destruction is that with time you forget what was destroyed in the first place

the only sensible thing you could do now is die

you wish for it to end, when it ends you clamor for it, but you don't want it back, you want the memory of it to not fade away

the pungency of goat shit and week old blood fermenting across street corners

old paradigms have all eroded

it was pitch dark with light emitting from passersby when i found you

death is indiscriminate when it should be much more painful for you

an infantile approach to death

a peering eye disappearing leads my restless fantasies to an exhausting reality